By Sandra Dilley
So, here I am in the “middle”… “Mid-life” as people call it. I am not at all where I thought I would be as a young girl full of possibilities, dreams and inspirations. Among those, to be married with kids and raise a family. That was pretty much it… all I wanted. Not riches, not glory (Ok, some glory, lol) or a career. I wanted to mirror the life my mother had. Our family was her life.
Unfortunately, through many choices, I, now at 50, am single, divorced from multiple marriages, and though I had children, ended up raising them mostly on my own, having to work a career (at times multiple jobs) and be all things God didn’t necessarily create me to be… or any family unit for that matter.
However, I know as our God is sovereign, He can make all things work together for my good. (Romans 8:28) He knows me. (Psalm 139) He knew when He created me the bad and the good choices I would make. Sometimes, I think, ‘What happened to me?’
I have learned that the most important part of this journey is to continually seek and give it ALL to Him; that I can make my “good plans”, but He directs my steps. (Proverbs 16:33) Nothing can separate us from the love of God. (Romans 8:31-39)
God can take the messes I make and He makes them beautiful…beauty from ashes (Isaiah 61:3). He has a plan and a purpose for my life and every life!! When I completely surrender and give it ALL to HIM, He CAN do this! The key is to NOT look at circumstances, but, to continually fix our eyes on Jesus; to lift our gaze. God’s thoughts are NOT our thoughts, His ways are not our ways. (Isaiah 5:8-9) I can trust Him with all things.
More than anything, in this season, “the middle”, I desire to serve my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, instead of myself. I have come to the end of myself. I thank God that He is a God of mercy, love and grace. He will redeem the years the locusts have eaten. (Joel 2:25)
He loves me with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3) and as my Father is kind, good and caring, He delights in giving me the desires of my heart as I delight in Him. (Psalm 37:4)
May God meet you where ever you may have landed in this “middle” season of your life and may you seek Him for the plan and purpose in Him. May you look to where your help comes from (Psalm 121:1) and may you fulfill whatever it is He has called and created you to be! (Psalm 139)